Lemons thrown at me….don’t want to make lemonade

 

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“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade”- a favourite phrase of mine. And I have always tried to do just that-make the best possible lemonade that I can. But lately, I seem to be growing tired of this process. Maybe I don’t like lemonade anymore and want to make orange juice instead. Maybe the universe has started to think that I am okay with lemons and lemonade; and so, has decided that it would keep sending them my way. But hey universe! send me some other nice, sweet fruit now. How about oranges, my favourite? Take it from me in writing that my taste has changed. These lemons are an unwanted gift to me at present. To be more precise- these Fauji Lemons.

So that was me talking in metaphors. Let’s go in for some plain speech now. I am weary of fauji lemons. I am also feeling guilty. Guilty of taking my children away from a much loved home and a much loved garden. Guilty of making them leave a school that they had become comfortable at. Guilty of taking them away from their friends whom they are missing and remembering. Guilty of depriving them of their daily fun evenings at their favourite place- the park. Guilty of bringing them to a strange town where they have to face the fact that there is no decent park that they can go to. Guilty of robbing them of the fun-filled life that they had till now.

Innocent as they are, they have accepted the changes. But I can see the various ways in which my younger daughter is showing signs of stress. She becomes teary-eyed easily and has been telling us that she wants to meet her old friends and go back to her old home. From the friendly and happy “Taidu” who was a favourite of everyone, she has turned into that new kid on the block who has been crying at school. The worst part is – they don’t have Saturdays off at the new school. Sundays come and go; and by the time you get to say “holiday”, it’s Monday and back to school again. Sorry, my sweethearts, my heart is aching for you.

So please, dear Universe, start sending oranges to me now. Coz if you throw any more of these lemons, I might just squirt some lemon juice in your direction!

© Aug 2016 Sapna Dhyani Devrani

Author: Sapna Dhyani

I am Sapna Dhyani. I write about everything that crosses my mind. I write about life as I see it and like to infuse humour into my blogs. I belong to Dehradun but now live in a new city after every two years, being an army wife. This uprooting of base every couple of years, setting up a new home in a new place, meeting new people and forging new friendships, exploring new cities; all this ensures that I go through and am blessed with a myriad of experiences.

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